In the process of Healing

Heyyo.. 

I'm back to my bloggie after like 1 week plus 2 weeks? If you read from my previous post I guess you already know I went for a minor surgery about the lump that grow on my right wrist near my veins and nerves (can see at the pictures below).. Actually to recall back my surgery process seriously still make me little bit bit scare.. bcoz mind keep thinking all sort of things.. how if this and that happen.... 

Bye bye ; 

On the 7th August 2015, Friday, after dropping little sister to work , went to breakfast with Mummy at Pulau Tikus market before heading straight to Island Hospital..Reach there sharp 9am and Do the registration and admit in the Day ward.. the nurse pass me the ''ninja suit'' hospital gown and ask me to change.. ( *okay I googled it so I know whats the proper name for it*dont laugh!) then ask me to wait for other nurse to call my name to follow them to the operation ward..

 while changing .. seriously I don't know how to wear that gown .. and I wear it terbalik.. hahaha... ask my mum to help me..plus the nurse tell me to remove everything including bra and panty.. *in my mind, I'm thinking huh?? how to remove all some more that time I'm on period.. walk to the nurse and tell her I'm on period.. she say nevermind.. she will give me their "pad"* hahaa.. here comes the funny part.. I don't know how to wear the pad she give.. hahaa.. she demonstrate for me how to tie and all.. and ask me go to the toilet and tie it myself.. seriously.. haha.. I just follow what I remember from her demonstration and tie tie tie.. lol.. so loose.. and not secure at all.. and the pad have two string to tie around the waist..like sumo.. but luckily period is coming to an end.. or not really GG.. 

after changing into the gown.. they want me to remove all my nail polish and take off every accessories that I have on .. so just guai guai obey lo... after done everything I'm actually quite sleepy.. because previous night do not have a good sleep maybe worry too much.. so just lie on bed texting baby and wait for the nurse to call my name.. Mummy was with me all the time.. 感恩

some pictures before surgery ; 

the ganglion cysts pointed in the arrow below and light pink lining circle

my terrible eyebags.. my gawdd... 

picture before push in to the operation ward with wheelchair..

About 11 plus.. one of the nurse push me in to operation ward.. wait there like 2 hours.. so cold, 

keep yawning..but cannot fall asleep so see the nurse and doctor push in and out so many surgery patients.. while waiting for my turn.. beside me sitting another patient, talk to her a bit bcoz I'm bored.. the girl younger than me two years also doing the ganglion cysts removal.. but her growth is on her right ankle .. 

About 12 plus the nurse call my name and check with me my name and all.. then bring me into the operation room.. my heart beat so fast.. hahaa..I guess they bring me to a quite small/medium operation room .. the moment I push in the operation room.. I scan over the room and the room really very bright though with a lot of lights on the ceiling, a big stereo right in front of the bed I lying on.. playing catchy songs and one big clock above it.. and the room really really cold .. not like the one I imagine.. creepy lights with geli geli environment.. hahaa.. which make me a little relieve.. but still make me wonder how come there is a stereo there and playing this kind of music hahaa..

One of the nurse again double confirm my name and signature and put the "clip" on my index finger on my left hand to monitor my heart rate and another nurse bring over a "pipe thingy" but blowing out hot air to keep me warm throughout the surgery..then another nurse strap few "thingy" (like those they tie the mental disorder people to their bed) to hold my legs and body to the bed.. I guess is to prevent me from moving during the surgery kua.. since I'm gonna be fully awake as they gonna numb my hand only.. haha.. 

Suddenly a guy wearing green gown walk come in.. heard the nurse say you do today? I shock how come my doctor suddenly change become an Indian man.. then after few minutes Doctor C came in.. pheww.. then only know the Green Gown man actually is the one who help the doctor to hold me/pass him tools during the surgery..  the green gown man hold my right hand up and ask me to follow him do some movement..  open and close my right hand few times then he gonna tie my arm there real tight.. and again my assumption.. maybe to stop my hand blood from flowing to my wrist.. after the very tight tie.. another nurse bring an extra board to fix beside the bed to operate.. Doctor C greet and smile to me.. hahaa.. quite nervous that time... and ask him I'm gonna look at you operate ? LOL.. *what kind of question is that.. seriously..* he laughed and say "no no.. we got a plastic thingy to cover .. you can't see it.." hahaa..  then tell me he gonna inject the numb thingy injection d.. will a little pain.. so I dare not see and turn to my left.. a little pain when the injection go in.. I guess three dose? then when done with the injection my right hand feel so numb till I do not have the energy to lift it up.. I turn over to my right to have a look before they put the plastic thingy.. and saw how come my wrist swollen like one egg inside like that.. really shock and in a split second I turn back my left..

Nearly cried.. but luckily I didn't .. haha.. see the clock .. is 1.15pm then surgery start ..because Doctor C ask pain or not.. and again my assumption.. to check whether the numb injection works or not.. after that he keep quiet d..  in my heart thinking.. how if the numb injection did not work.. and I can feel the cutting.. hahaa.. damn siao my mind that time.. then keep ask the cute cute nurse standing on my left.. how it is? cut already? done already? hahaa.. she keep laugh and say don't know .. can't see.. so I gave up and close my eyes trying to sleep but I can't .. can feel the doctor take things to korek korek and all but no feeling because very the numb.. then got one moment.. the doctor like use some "electric thingy" to sot me.. then got the burn smell.. hahaa.. very curious whats that.. but I did not ask.. keep stare at the clock .. time moving very slow that time.. suddenly nose feel so itchy and ask the nurse can I rub my nose awhile .. hahaa.. all the while just stare at the clock.. 1.20 pm I heard the doctor say stitch.. then got one nurse counting aloud.. 1....2....3....4....5....6....7....8 then don't know say what to another people.. like that do and all.. then repeat again .. 1...2...3....4....5...6....7....8 caterpillar/centipede *forget already*.. hahaa.. so cute term.. then heard the doctor say again stitch !.. *my gawd.. why wanna say out.. make me more nervous only* then the heart rate monitor like beep quite fast during that moment.. hahaa..

1.30pm the operation light is off.. the nurse all take the plastic away .. remove the heart beat clip from my finger.. the hot air pipe.. the strap.. and say done already.. ask me whether can sit up.. so I sit up.. then ask me whether dizzy or not and all..at that moment No.. so again I scan the board attached to the bed that used for my wrist surgery.. all blood.. and on the floor too.. with the yellow solution all.. yuckss.. but don't know why the blood like darker red .. and cottons with blood stains all.. haha.. Then the nurse ask me to walk out.. LOL.. so funny.. Did not know after surgery .. the patients have to walk out just like that from the room.. then Doctor C walk come back and saw.. and scold the nurse.. No.. push the patient with wheelchair.. hahaa... guai guai sit on the chair push back to the Day Ward.. out from the operation ward and saw mummy and dad waiting already.. hahaa.. 

Back to the dayward and the nurse ask me sign the form.. hand seriously damn numb.. so just simply sign.. then change back my own clothes.. terrible feeling.. my hand cannot even touch anything.. touch only feel so numb numb numb.. so mummy help me out.. and bought me lunch.. then take one tablet of pain killer.. rest awhile and discharge already.. wait so long .. but surgery just took like half an hour... haha.. 

Right after the surgery.. hahaa.. 

yes .. I still have the mood to capture photo with my hand.. 

Hiiee.. I'm baymax.. 

the growth..

On the 10th August 2015, check up.. doctor did not say anything.. and just remove the bandage only.. and stick a plastic thingy for me.. and ask me to come check up on the 24th August 2015.. just simple procedure like that cost me another 299+ .. no eyes see..

see the blue black on my palm near to my thumb and my wrist below ... yea... real pain... temporarily an OKU can't wash my hair .. can't eat with my right hand.. can't hold phone with right hand .. anything to do with right hand .. all cannot.. all temporarily must use left hand.. *ewww.. right...* hahaa luckily now on sem break.. or not really miserable.. and I think people who don't know about this .. they will thought I try to commit suicide.. hahaa... 

a closer look.. 

slowly the blue black turning into yellow green

On 14th of August 2015, change the plastic at home..
Even the doctor say is waterproof.. but I still dare not .. just in case anything might happen right.. 
By looking at the scar.. Teary eyes.. T.T 

-before-

-after-

I'm still in the process of healing..
Now can move more already.. still remember the first few days.. I cannot even show number 4 with my right hand.. Thanks to my family members especially my Mummy.. who stay with me throughout the surgery time.. bring me to check up and all.. *LoveYou*

Boyfiee who almost everyday after the surgery keep asking me whether feeling better or not.. and get me the food I craving after the surgery.. bring me here and there.. *LoveLoveYou-Muacks* 

Darlings, friends  who texted me and ask me about my conditions and all.. (you know who you are) I appreciate it alot ! Especially you.. LiChen.. who came all the way from your house to my house to visit me on that night.. after my surgery.. *Hugs* 

and Yea.. after the surgery day..instead of staying home rest and all..
 I went out watch movie.. cafe hopping and all.. chill..
life still goes on right ~ xDD

Ps ; have to research for my project already for the upcoming semester..aikss.. eight days to my last semester result.. one week plus to my new semester.. holiday why you fast end?

Till here for now.. 

Stay tuned for the next entry..